The light inside a tunnel!

I have wanted to write an update, but unsure what to write! I am not the best at putting my feelings and thoughts into words. So I won't, I will share what keeps coming to me the past few days. I read an Ensign article in 2008 that I have always loved, it has stuck with me and has given me great strength!

Elder Richard G. Scott of the Quorum of the Twelve Apostles: “We lived in the presence of God our Holy Father and His Beloved Son, Jesus Christ, in a premortal existence. … We were told
“… You were taught and prepared for the circumstances you would personally encounter in mortality. … Your memory of premortal life would be kept from you to assure that it would be a valid test, but there would be guidance given to show you how to live. Our Father’s plan for salvation in this life with the opportunity of returning to Him would be called the gospel of Jesus Christ” (“Truth Restored,” Liahona and Ensign, Nov. 2005, 78–79).

The knowledge I get, knowing I was taught and prepared for the trials I,and my family has encounter this past week, gives me great peace and strength! To know I was prepared to handle this trial, and given all the tools I would need to get through any and all trials I will face. That's the greatest blessing I could ever ask for. I have comfort, happiness and the knowledge that what we are to do can and will happen!

I want to tell everyone that has supported us this week "THANK YOU"! You have helped build us up, offer love, comfort and support! Your guys are the best!!!!

A sad and heart wrenching end!

Hi everyone,
Oh where to begin. A lot has happened over the last two day. Today has been a very emotional and very difficult day to say the least! We just finished sitting down with our kids and explaining to them that their brother and sister aren't coming home. That Kingsley and Sarah situation in Ghana wasn't at all what we were made to believe it was. That they have a loving family and that that family isn't certain on adoption and what it actually entails. As a mom that was so heart wrenching and painful, to see my kids suffer, to see them go through such disappointment and grieving. We have all cried together and prayed together. I have always admired and appreciated how determined and faithful my kids have been, how willing they are to sacrifice of themselves to bring their siblings home. They will and have given all of themselves to make it happen. I have worried about squashing their faith, squashing their trust in the adoption process and in people, squashing their desire to ever adopt again. But again my kids have been amazing and have surprised me. They are strong and know that adoption is what's right for our family. They want us to move forward, they want us to do all we can as parents to find our children, their siblings, that need to be apart of our family. Of course they are hurt, sad, and disappointed and can't understand how or why Kingsley and Sarah situation is completely different that what we were told. But they have found hope within themselves and within our family to keep going. I don't know what this means for us right now, how we are to move forward past this, or what we will do in the near future. All I can say right now is that I have HOPE in my heart and Faith in the Lord that he has lead us here a reason, a reason I don't understand now, but will some day. As a family we are leaning on our testimonies and on our own personal revelations to get us through this difficult time. Thank you all for supporting us through emails, phone calls, orders and with the desire in your heart to bring our family together forever.I feel so bad that this happens to affect you as well. I am so sorry!
I want everyone to know we are not done, we will still fight, fight for our family that's not yet complete and someday we will be blessed with our children. As of right now we are working on obtaining the money we sent, we aren't sure if we will get it back, but hope we will. Our entire family has went to great lengths to sacrifice for every penny of it. Please keeps us in your prayers.
I found this on a good friends blog, someone I admire and appreciate it. And it really fits to how I feel right now so I thought I would share it!


I AM SWIMMING!